I'm tired of myself, i'm tired of lying and being unsinscere and dishonest. Every day i feel like im putting up some charade and that isn't what i really am. I feel like i have got all these things that i have to hide from everyone else because of what they will think.
I wish i had someone i could spill it all to.
Everything, all the things that people would say are "wrong" and would put them off me. I do all these things so that other people might be impressed when i know inside it is just all pointless.
I feel i have no direction in life right now, i'm just doing my degree and trudging on, applying for well paid jobs and jumping the hoops for a life that i might not even enjoy. I am spoiled beyond belief by my family, i never worked hard for anything i own, i have this flat all to myself and even though other people are envious i sometimes wonder whether it is really better this way?
I want to find someone who i can just be honest with. I'm not looking for consolation, im not looking for a shoulder to cry on, just someone who i can brutally honest with, say exactly what is on my mind and it doesn't matter.
I want to find someone who is experienced in LIFE, someone who actually enjoys themself.
I don't even know what my hobbies are and what i really enjoy. Do i really enjoy playing computer games all day? Do i really like playing poker? Watching anime? Searching for porn?
I even feel a little afraid, as if the more i write on here the more it pinpoints to who i am in the real world and the easier it is for someone to see this and know who i am. Then i feel like my life will be fucked because people will see this and i will be embarassed beyond belief and wouldn't be able to show my face

A little bit about myself? hahaha... I guess im normal height, goto soton uni, chinese, super skinny because i got some serious appetite problems, do a lot of random extreme sports so i can pretend to be cool when im really not, manage to spend countless hours on the computer doing nothing. I guess if you want to find out more about me just contact me.
I don't even know what im really looking for. You can contact me, have my pictures (where i pull some pose to make myself look better than i feel) and we can chat.
I am likely to be super easygoing, i am a complete perv and i suppose you will get to see the side of me which i put on when meeting someone i never met before after knowing they read this. I guess if you see this and are just looking for sex, well thats great too i suppose

Please be a nice person in general, don't say anything about what i tell you or what you read to other people who might know me, and it would be really nice to have someone who i could just say anything.
It would be great if you got msn or skype or some other chat medium so i can at least talk properly.

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